I am stressed about everything right now, from work to family to school to my well-being. I am stressed out about school because I have to get my grades up in order to graduate. I am stressed due to family because things at home are not that great and I have to deal with that stuff after a long day at school/softball tryouts and work. I get home tired from having to do a bit of everything so its hard for me to concentrate on my home work when I am half asleep and listening to family arguments in the next room. Work has been a pain in the ass because I have to clean and run around, now after softball tryouts its not the best thing to do when I am already tired and sore. I wake up stressed and go to bed stressed, my well-being does not exist at the moment.

I try to ignore the people around me to alleviate my stress in order to keep myself focused on what I  have to do but I talk to a lot of my cousins for emotional support. In order to manage my stress more I could go back to old bad habits but I know thats not a "logical" answer to my problems/stress, well according to other people.

I am looking forward to celebrating my mommas birthday at the end of February. I plan on buying her a camera and taking her out to dinner. Thats about all I am looking forward to.

college process....I am most probably going to go to community college if I don't get in to Stanislaus. CSU Stanislaus requested an Official Transcript so they are still considering my application but other people got in so I am guessing the letter I get will be a rejection letter. I have put aside the other schools because I realized I would not really go there if I got accepted. So I am just waiting to hear back from stan state.